I want a baby in my belly

CD 4

So, I’m not at the gym.  I went to the gym and the parking lot was so full, I talked myself right out of it.  And promptly drove myself to Sonic.  Yeah, I'm a role model.  I came home and decided if I wasn’t going to the gym, I would at least do something useful. I am determined to get my Christmas tree up tonight.  Well, this week.  No, tonight!  I see the wonder in your eyes, how can she be putting up that tree and writing about it at the same time?!?  So, I’m lazy.  But I will get my tree up tonight.  And I will have pretty pictures of it.

Lets talk about why I was so irritated this morning.  Hubby’s alarm goes off at 4am.  Eww.  Most mornings I don't hear it, and since I am the lightest sleeper in the world, I assume its because its turned down.  Naturally.  This morning it goes off jarring me out of my first full nights sleep since my period started.  He hits snooze.  Ten minutes later, BUZZ, BUZZ, BUZZ, BUZZ… are we seeing a pattern?  Snooze.  Ten minutes later, BUZZ, BUZZ, BUZZ, BUZZ.  Snooze.  Is it 4:30 yet, cause that’s when he finally decided to get up and turn it off.  By then, I was fully awake and fuming.  The thing that’s bothering me the most: I don't have 3 hours of sleep before I have to take my temp.  The thing that’s keeping me up: what if this happens all the time?  Do I really need to change my temp time to 4am???  That’s crazy talk!  So I took it at 5, after I’d already been up, and its still down from yesterday.  Hold on, I want to look that up.  Turns out it is normal for it to drop during your period.  I’m very anxious to see if I can track my ovulation with my temps.  I’m ready to move on into this month!  According to my forecast, ovulation should occur mid month.  I will be paying special attention, since I am heading up north for Christmas, leaving hubby behind.  I’m praying that I don't run that late on schedule.  I don't know why I’m so worried about it.  With my cycles pretty much on schedule every month, but what if something is wrong?  And what if something IS wrong?  Why have we waited so long to find this out?  Those last 2 questions are overwhelming to me.  I feel good that I can now say I want to get pregnant and have a baby so badly.  I now can honestly say I want it more than it scares me.  Although I will admit, it still scares me a little to have a baby, to raise a child, to shape a whole person.  But I can’t wait!  This thought brings tears to my eyes.  I’m getting emotional now.  What I need is a nice hot shower, and pretty sparkling lights.  =)

BBT: 97.0
Flow: Medium - Light (she's on her way out)
Symptoms: Irritated this morning, but I know the reason (damn alarm clock)
Feelings: I was too busy to feel anything today.